Sunday, June 03, 2012

Son of Man

Oh, the power to be strong 
And the wisdom to be wise 
All these things will 
Come to you in time 
On this journey that you're making 
There'll be answers that you'll seek 
And it's you who'll climb the mountain 
It's you who'll reach the peak 

Son of Man, look to the sky 
Lift your spirit, set it free 
Some day you'll walk tall with pride 
Son of Man, a man in time you'll be 

Though there's no one there to guide you 
No one to take your hand 
But with faith and understanding 
You will journey from boy to man 
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/p/phil+collins/son+of+man_20108079.html ] 
Son of Man, look to the sky 
Lift your spirit, set it free 
Some day you'll walk tall with pride 
Son of Man, a man in time you'll be 

In learning you will teach 
And in teaching you will learn 
You'll find your place beside the 
Ones you love 
Oh, and all the things you dreamed of 
The visions that you saw 
Well, the time is drawing near now 
It's yours to claim in all 

Son of Man, look to the sky 
Lift your spirit, set it free 
Some day you'll walk tall with pride 
Son of Man, a man in time you'll be 


I am a frogman from the Sea! Hooya! Nothing stands in my way! 

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

51 facts about guys

Hi everyone! Some of the girls in my school have been wondering what are guys like so I found some information about guys that I feel is kind of true.... Well at least most of them. Credit to those who came up with this =D

1. Guys hate sluts.

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

8. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

9. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

10. Guys get jealous easily.

11. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

12. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

13. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

14. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it hardly works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

15. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

16. Guys can be very open about themselves, if you listen closely.

17. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

18. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

19. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

20. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

21. Guys love you more than you realise if they are serious in your relationships.

22. Guys will brag about anything. :P

23. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

24. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

25. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

26. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

27. Try to be as straightforward as possible when talking to a guy. Give them indirect statements and they will most likely get confused.

28. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

29. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

30. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

31. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

32. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

33. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

34. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

35. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

36. Guys don't really have final decisions.

37. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

38. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

39. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

40. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

41. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

42. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

43. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

44. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much. Guys prefer the natural look.

45. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

46. Guys will sit and stare at their phones to wait for the girl they really like to reply their messages

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange, have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

51. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I will remember you :)

Hihi,

I just wanted to share with everyone this song. I think it is very beautiful and I feel it perfectly describes what some of us are feeling with the year coming to an end (at least for the first part). haha ;) Enjoy


The little boy who lived in another world

I have been giving it a lot of thought before posting this, but here goes...

Hi everyone! We are closer to the big, giant, scary monster known as A-levels. Everyone is starting to feel the stress and tensions are rising. (Hope we can make it through this). But surprisingly, I think that the bulk of my stress comes from elsewhere, weird isn't it? But I feel that I should correct certain things in my life as they are starting to affect the other aspects in my world.

Well, I think the most pressing thing is my emotional and mental problems. I just found out one thing that I thought I eradicated from my system. I am still afraid to lose things, to people, friends and a lot of other things. Maybe this is why I blocked out my emotions in the first place. Maybe it was also the first emotion I encountered when I went looking for them. But this time it feels different. In the past I would debate with myself if I should be feeling this way. But now I am certain on what I want to keep close to me.

Let me tell you guys a story about a boy who felt so alone even when he knew there were friends who were there to help him. When he was young, he was violent and reckless. Doing whatever that came to his mind, participating in the many playful antics that some would now call mischievous or even dangerous. He lived only for himself and never spared a thought for others. But somehow, he possessed the gift of drawing others towards him. He got along well with his friends most of the time, even if they could not stand his tantrums or demands. He could manipulate and talk his way through many sticky situations. He was fun to be with and was always the centre of attention.

That took a change when he first laid eyes on what he felt was the most ravishing girl in his school. He started thinking for others, started to be nice and understanding. He even made gifts from his own hand to impress the girl. But alas, the dark nature was still very much within him. He was still rebellious and arrogant and when he saw his gifts unappreciated or disposed, he got hurt. For the first time, he felt the sharp arrow of rejection and worthlessness penetrate his heart. He could not explain it but to him, it was the worst feeling in the world.

As the boy grew older, he learned more about life. Although he had just tasted the tip of sorrow and despair, it was just the beginning. When he was 11, the enraged beast within him met its match. Flanked from all sides by parents and teachers alike, they brought forth the wrath of the whip of punishment and the words of discipline. With the wound from the arrow, the knights of maturity showed the beast fear, sorrow and defeat. Never has he felt so helpless nor received so much pain. When the knights left, the boy stared up into the clouds and saw a city within it. A place filled with happiness and joy, freedom and security. There in the sanctuary, he reflected on his sins of the past. How foolish he had been to not see the trail of destruction he left behind him.

As the days passed, the boy saw more of the world. More than he could before the strength within him was sapped from his bones. He realised what was important was not himself, but others. To give and not to take. To help and not to bring harm. To forgive and not to seek revenge. He stared at himself in the mirror and decided that he shall be arrogant no longer.

It took him days, months to suppress his emotions. To control his behaviour and not to react when he was angry or scared. It was painful and depressing, to go against what you are, to define a new person. But eventually, through the guidance of the knights that challenged him, he beast was tamed.

But it still lived within his deepest thoughts and played with his heart...


To be continued....

Friday, September 16, 2011

Vorpus Ardante



"The light from the sun is our beacon of hope and source of our lives"

Hihi, its been a long time since I last posted but I feel I should. These past few weeks have been interesting to say the least. Many people are stressed over prelims these few days. I am no exception. However, I feel more disturbed in other parts of my life and it is kind of worries me.

Many people say I am weird and few know what is actually going through my mind, but hey that's teenage life for you. However, I do feel better than in a long while. I realise that I can do things and see things in a way I have not done before. maybe it is all part of my epic journey.

Talking about it, I realised how important it is to see things from the different lights. I revisited a side of me I have shunned for years, only to realise that some parts of it were good to my life. Like the fire and the rain, opposites that work together bring about wonders that never cease to capture our imagination. The very miracle of life itself is a living example.

I always believed in the eye of the falcon, to see things far beyond others. To anticipate and have the vision that spans beyond the horizons. They say that if you look far enough into space, you will see the edge of time itself. However, I realise now that the eye of the dragon also hold some insight. The way of the dragon connects people. It is the ability to see the path and not the destination. To be able to analyse and appreciate the things that are right in front of you. Many people has this and to me the best person who demonstrates this is Firehero, with the eye of the dragon, he sees the true light of many situations. They say that the eye of the dragon is a key to the windows of possibilities.

I know how that I must possess both to realise my full potential. If I have told anyone that I have found all my emotions, I regretably realise that I have not. Although they appear once in a while, I still feel I have not felt those feelings in all their purity. Maybe it is just me hiding myself from what some part of me feels, fearing that I would make the same mistakes, trying to keep myself away from harm.

But if its with any consolation, I know I have felt the bond, the link that binds us all together. The will and force to be more than what we are. Although it only comes occasionally, I am glad to be able to experience it. Maybe someday I would find a way to understand its true nature and be able to break myself from these mental chains. Right now, I appreciate all that I have, even though many times I feel that I have not lived up to deserve them and sometimes fearing that I would lose them.

I am still at a loss between the moon and the sun. The conflicts within me are more than enough to drive me over the edge. But I must hold on for the sake of all around me. I know the sun may no longer be within by grasp, but I am content that the rays with it shines
still touch my skin. The moon still remains elusive, changing my point of view at every moment, every instance. I wonder if it knows I look up to see if its light is shining in the sky every night, praying for everything to be all right.

As the winds of change howl and blow around us once more, our influence now becomes stronger. As a wise gypsy once said, "It is not over till you say it is" We decide who we want to be and through the many ripples that our actions create, I hope that we sahll see the light at the end of the tunnel. So I pray for those who feel defeated to find the strength to get back up, those who are at constant mercy of the fears that surround us, find the courage to stand on their ground, those who feel that all is lost, to find the hope to keeping going on.

They say that a door that closes can never open, I say that there is more than one entrance to the destiny which you seek.


"The light of the moon is the guide through the unknown and the hope in our hearts"

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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Johnston is on an Epic Journey 2

Hi everyone!

To those who knew that I embarked on an epic journey last year will be happy to know that I have completed phase uno of it!

But actually I face a bigger challenge than before. More twists and turns and much more on stake. This time, it will not be battle agianst others, but a quest to find myself.

YES TO FIND MYSELF. If this was a movie it would be a sequel where the hero loses his way in his quest to be great and has to find himself, to find inner peace.

Well, so far I believe the most prominent thing now is to start by finding my emotions. I seem to have lost them on the way. Where they are, I am not too sure. But I will look for them. ;)

Many of you may say why bother to find some of them? Like sadness or anger or even fear? They cause nothing but harm and pain. Sometimes we wish for the feeling to disappear, I can tell you this from experience. The worst, and I mean absolute worst feeling in the world in nothingness, hollowness, feeling absolutely nothing. You will feel no joy, no sadness, no fear. You will also feel no drive, no care, no will. You will be an empty shell with only your mind to tell you what to do.

So appreciate your feelings now.

Yes, do not let them control you, but you should not control them either. They should be part of you and you should listen and understand them, and they will do the same.

Well, now back to my journey. So I started out finding my first emotion, FEAR. I can tell you the day was horrible when I found it. He hit me like a wave so massive I could hardly breathe. His grip was so tight it was like an anaconda wrapping itself around me. His touch was so cold that even under the afternoon sun, I was shivering.

But as I talked to him, (yes I talk to myself) I realised why we are given fear. He is not there to torment us or to keep us from doing things that we want to do. Have you ever experienced wanting to do something but suddenly in your mind you ask yourself "what if...?" and then you feel scared that it might come true and stop doing it?

Well I learnt that it is actually ok to be afraid. Once a small boy asked his father, "Daddy, why do we fear?"

The dad replied, "It is so that we may overcome it and have the drive and will to carry on. It is the reason why we live. We live everyday because we fear of death. We make use of our life because we fear that we might regret our actions. Fear gives us the reason why we do anything in our lives."

They say that the opposite of fear is courage. But I believe that fear and courage are one and the same. Like I always say, opposites have more in common than we realise. To have courage is to overcome your fear. To fear is to overwhelm your courage. Thus, fear and courage exist inter-dependent of each other. One cannot live without the other.

The trinity of Fear and Courage is Will. To understand the nature of fear and courage will mean that you will have understand the nature of will. We cannot have will if we do not fear or do not stand up against our fear. It is within our very essence to choose to will. The reason why we were given adreanalien was to be able to feel fear and overcome it. We were given the power of will and it is fear and courage that drives it.

So stop running away from fear as you will be running away from courage and will as well. It is normal for us to fear and we have the power to overcome it and be more than we think we are. Fear gives us our drive and our purpose in doing many things.

"Fear may lead to anger, but it can also lead to courage"

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Focus is Key

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! OH MY GOSH, I think I just wasted 3 days not studying anything! Why is this happening? Come to think of it why am I even writing this post? I should be giving it my all for the Mid-Years.








Its ok I will use this post as a constant reminder to never let this happen agian in my JC life.








I keep telling myself to work but my body does not move, and I have been going out like almost everyday. Its not that I do not want to spend time outside, especially if it is with my family and friends but it is so hard to juggle everything!








But then I remember the words that rang through my head after my PSLE, the same words that ran through the mant texts I have read.








"Nothing is Impossible, If you believe in something hard enough, it will become real"








This statement gave me the strength I needed to push myself into the many realms of science and humanities. It gave me the will to believe in what I wanted to achieve. What this staement actually means is to hust believe in something, but to believe in yourself. To believe that you can make it real. To believe is to give your heart and soul to whatever thing or person. To focus and push through all obstalces, all barriers and rising evertime you fall. To keep believing even if the world does not. To have faith even if it seems hopeless. To keep trying even after you have failed. And to not turn back, even if everone tells you to. But the most important thing is to do something about it. To believe is not to sit back and do nothing. That is called dreaming and dreams cannot be turned into reality without action.








Believing is much more. When you believe, you will not question the purpose of your actions, for you already have the reasons. You will not complain, for you will have known the risks and dangers. You will not back down, for you have something to fight for. And you will have focus and determination, for you have believed.








No one asks, but my favourite animal is the peregrine falcon. The main reason is because when the peregrine falcon knows what it wants, it will go to the ends of the earth and beyond to get it. When it is hunting, it swoops down at a blistering 200 km/hr to seize it and does not change its target once it locks on to it. It is the fastest animal in the world and I hope to be able to learn from its its focus and determination.








Well, I better go study agian. But I will end off wtih this.








"The person with the Eye of the Falcon is said to be able to see the farthest of distances. It gives focus like no other and with it comes unparralled speed and power."

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Techno rules the World!

Hi all, today I think I would like to talk about my favourite genere of music.

That is TECHNO TRANCE!!!!

Haha, alot of you may be wondering why I love techno trance so much so here are a few reasons.

1) To me, techno trance brings me into another world. It feels so elusive and distant. So enchanting and dreamy, it takes me away to another place everytime I hear it.

2) It helps me relax. Even if you guys may not think so, but techno trance is the music I listen to to destress. Because the feeling of techno trance just lifts my spirit up by taking it on a ride, soaring through through the skies and through space. (This is enjoyable for me because I really really want to be able to fly through the skies and the stars. I dream of it everytime I look at the many celestial bodies in the sky)

3) It empowers me like no other genere. (Other than epic music, my other fav!!! =D ) Everytime I hear it I feel like I can take down a dinosaur, RAWR!!! So everytime I need some motivation to carry on through the day, I will recall the many techno songs in my mind.

I hope one day I can make my own techno song. That will be sooooo coooool =P. So far I have not found anyone of my friends who like it. Haha, well its is ok. We all have a little world of our own! Mine is a place that is soooooo crazy it will freak many of my friends. haha! Well enjoy techno!!!!

Here is a song for you guys to enjoy! Click Here